So,here I am.
Back again.
I managed to retrieve my old(I mean OLD) posts from the annals of Blogspot waste,and read through them.
No comments.
Ah.. Results. Economics. Shit.
Forget that.
I suddenly feel like watching Men In Black. The first one.
Or Forrest Gump.
Bored.
Nothing much to post here right now.
I think I'll just go and drown in my own boredom.
Ah.. :(
Peace. Or whatever you like.
-32
Monday, April 13, 2009
Friday, April 3, 2009
Is it any wonder?
That's a question,isn't it?
Did I just answer that with another question?
What is the one above then?
Let me tell you something.. If you are invited to the Kingdom Of Heaven,don't stay at home.
Don't sit and curse the weather.
GO.
Why?
Let's see..
Life is depressing.
I can vouch for that.
If you want something,go out and get it.
Don't tell everyone around you that it is what you want,if you don't really want it.
How do you decide whether you want it or not?
You don't decide.
Life decides it for you.
It's like driving on the highway.
Who the fuck decides what speed you go at?
Definitely not you.
It is pre-determined.
You HAVE to go fast on the highway.
No two ways to that.
So,yeah,make everything allright.
So what if you don't have any faith in the road you chose?
You chose it because you found it to be decent enough.
I am at that junction,where I know I want it.
I know that I can keep wanting.
It's not for me to decide,as to whether or not I get it.
Stuff is prone to change.
People are.
What you feel from the heart today,may not be the same later.
All I want to say is..
If you declare something,stand by it.
Don't give the other person/people a chance to doubt your intentions.
I say this because sometimes,I am left wondering the credibility of those statements.
Of those thoughts.
I believe,yes.
And I want to believe forever.
Don't change that.
It's not a plea.
It's a fucking statement,straight from the heart.
Don't change that.
I might be the darkness in your tunnel..but you need the darkness.
I am not saying you can't do without it.
You can do without anything.
But if you choose the tunnel,you get the darkness with it.
Start.
Stop.
Start.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop.
FUCKING HELL.
The darkness wishes you would acknowledge it's true importance.
Well,one fine day,you will.
I'll wait.
I can do that.
I will,rather.
Peace.
-32
That's a question,isn't it?
Did I just answer that with another question?
What is the one above then?
Let me tell you something.. If you are invited to the Kingdom Of Heaven,don't stay at home.
Don't sit and curse the weather.
GO.
Why?
Let's see..
Life is depressing.
I can vouch for that.
If you want something,go out and get it.
Don't tell everyone around you that it is what you want,if you don't really want it.
How do you decide whether you want it or not?
You don't decide.
Life decides it for you.
It's like driving on the highway.
Who the fuck decides what speed you go at?
Definitely not you.
It is pre-determined.
You HAVE to go fast on the highway.
No two ways to that.
So,yeah,make everything allright.
So what if you don't have any faith in the road you chose?
You chose it because you found it to be decent enough.
I am at that junction,where I know I want it.
I know that I can keep wanting.
It's not for me to decide,as to whether or not I get it.
Stuff is prone to change.
People are.
What you feel from the heart today,may not be the same later.
All I want to say is..
If you declare something,stand by it.
Don't give the other person/people a chance to doubt your intentions.
I say this because sometimes,I am left wondering the credibility of those statements.
Of those thoughts.
I believe,yes.
And I want to believe forever.
Don't change that.
It's not a plea.
It's a fucking statement,straight from the heart.
Don't change that.
I might be the darkness in your tunnel..but you need the darkness.
I am not saying you can't do without it.
You can do without anything.
But if you choose the tunnel,you get the darkness with it.
Start.
Stop.
Start.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop.
Stop.
FUCKING HELL.
The darkness wishes you would acknowledge it's true importance.
Well,one fine day,you will.
I'll wait.
I can do that.
I will,rather.
Peace.
-32
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Version 2.0
I last posted a note on my blog on the 3rd of September,2008.
It's been a long,long time.
A lot of things have changed.
Most of them for the better.
I remember the feeling that took over me the day I wrote that last post.
I didn't want to write anymore.
I was done.
I felt useless,venting in a space that didn't mean a thing to anyone.
But as I stated before,a lot of things have changed.
10th December.
Yes.
That is the main highlight.
By far,the happiest day of my life.
It's quite easy to describe how I felt on that day,really.
Ok,this is how it is.
Hold your breath for as long as you can.
Yeah,do that first.
No,no cheating.
Hold. Your. Breath.
Now,when you can't take it anymore,which should happen in about 60-65 seconds,try holding it for a bit longer.
Yeah?
Now breathe.
Yep.
That's how I felt.
Coming back to life.
You tend to neglect most things in your life that bring you unconditional happiness.
By a show of hands,how many of us have done that?
I don't know about anyone else,but I raise both my hands.
On a more serious note,it always boils down to learning.
Life is a process,or something like that.
You make mistakes.
If you don't,then..well..don't worry..Soon. :)
You fall.
Or someone trips you.
On most occasions,you think that getting back up is going to be the most difficult thing you ever attempted in your life.
It usually isn't.
It takes a lot of courage,yes.
Picking up pieces of yourself,trying to find the best possible way to put them back.
But it is not difficult.
All you need is belief.
Believe in yourself.
I did.
I believed.
I loved.
I never stopped doing either one of them.
It gets you where you want to be.
It gets you what you want.
Trust me,I know. :)
It's been a long,long time.
A lot of things have changed.
Most of them for the better.
I remember the feeling that took over me the day I wrote that last post.
I didn't want to write anymore.
I was done.
I felt useless,venting in a space that didn't mean a thing to anyone.
But as I stated before,a lot of things have changed.
10th December.
Yes.
That is the main highlight.
By far,the happiest day of my life.
It's quite easy to describe how I felt on that day,really.
Ok,this is how it is.
Hold your breath for as long as you can.
Yeah,do that first.
No,no cheating.
Hold. Your. Breath.
Now,when you can't take it anymore,which should happen in about 60-65 seconds,try holding it for a bit longer.
Yeah?
Now breathe.
Yep.
That's how I felt.
Coming back to life.
You tend to neglect most things in your life that bring you unconditional happiness.
By a show of hands,how many of us have done that?
I don't know about anyone else,but I raise both my hands.
On a more serious note,it always boils down to learning.
Life is a process,or something like that.
You make mistakes.
If you don't,then..well..don't worry..Soon. :)
You fall.
Or someone trips you.
On most occasions,you think that getting back up is going to be the most difficult thing you ever attempted in your life.
It usually isn't.
It takes a lot of courage,yes.
Picking up pieces of yourself,trying to find the best possible way to put them back.
But it is not difficult.
All you need is belief.
Believe in yourself.
I did.
I believed.
I loved.
I never stopped doing either one of them.
It gets you where you want to be.
It gets you what you want.
Trust me,I know. :)
Wednesday, September 3, 2008
"Forever" is too strong a word.
Or so I realized a few days back..
Anyway..
I had this wonderful time today,by the seaside.
The sky was crimson red.
Clouds making weird shapes up there.
A strong,calming wind blowing..
and a friend to talk to..about life..
I want to die young.
I realized..there is no point in living to be old someday..
Why would you want to be at the beck and call of someone else,when you can actually live your life to the fullest and die before you become too bloody old?
It is simple,really..
Live a good life,and leave when you are on a high..I know of certain people who have done the same.. :)
Life is too unpredictable to be taken for granted.
You can't plan in advance..
you don't really know what you are gonna do tomorrow..where you are gonna be..and WHO'S GONNA BE WITH YOU..
It is quite sensible to refrain from such talks with anyone you love or care for..
Nothing is certain.
Things change fast..people change faster.
I guess that's all there is to life..
Staying the same never helped anyone. :)
Peace.
-32
Or so I realized a few days back..
Anyway..
I had this wonderful time today,by the seaside.
The sky was crimson red.
Clouds making weird shapes up there.
A strong,calming wind blowing..
and a friend to talk to..about life..
I want to die young.
I realized..there is no point in living to be old someday..
Why would you want to be at the beck and call of someone else,when you can actually live your life to the fullest and die before you become too bloody old?
It is simple,really..
Live a good life,and leave when you are on a high..I know of certain people who have done the same.. :)
Life is too unpredictable to be taken for granted.
You can't plan in advance..
you don't really know what you are gonna do tomorrow..where you are gonna be..and WHO'S GONNA BE WITH YOU..
It is quite sensible to refrain from such talks with anyone you love or care for..
Nothing is certain.
Things change fast..people change faster.
I guess that's all there is to life..
Staying the same never helped anyone. :)
Peace.
-32
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Why does it always rain on me.. ?
I stopped blogging ages back.
It doesn't seem to make sense anymore..
You let out everything in this place..and it ends up fucking the shit even more..
Well..I'll keep it short and simple..
Things are changing.
I thought they wouldn't.
I don't want them to.
I wish I was asleep. :(
I stopped blogging ages back.
It doesn't seem to make sense anymore..
You let out everything in this place..and it ends up fucking the shit even more..
Well..I'll keep it short and simple..
Things are changing.
I thought they wouldn't.
I don't want them to.
I wish I was asleep. :(
Monday, August 4, 2008
Sunday, August 3, 2008
To whomsoever this may concern..
I was born without the intelligence others may possess.I am not smart,I don't look like a dream,I don't come across as a friendly guy,my life is messed up,my head hurts all the time,people mistaken my contorted visions as pure madness.
This is not something I write everyday.
Living without a sense of fear means doing things you would never regret.
I don't know if the ones who come into this space even UNDERSTAND anything I do write.
My life is just really messed up and that reflects on my posts.
That doesn't mean I stop loving you,think differently about you..
I am this.
Please understand..
I am going through a rough patch.
I know that being there for me is not really possible for either one of you guys..
Which is why I fucking rant like a little bastard in my posts.
I love you.
Peace.
-32
I was born without the intelligence others may possess.I am not smart,I don't look like a dream,I don't come across as a friendly guy,my life is messed up,my head hurts all the time,people mistaken my contorted visions as pure madness.
This is not something I write everyday.
Living without a sense of fear means doing things you would never regret.
I don't know if the ones who come into this space even UNDERSTAND anything I do write.
My life is just really messed up and that reflects on my posts.
That doesn't mean I stop loving you,think differently about you..
I am this.
Please understand..
I am going through a rough patch.
I know that being there for me is not really possible for either one of you guys..
Which is why I fucking rant like a little bastard in my posts.
I love you.
Peace.
-32
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